hmm. my legs are tiredd.super tired.went around the whole of tm and century looking for hui's prefect present.haha.found something.sharin with glad n joce.oh well.issac got his own present. walk walk walk.tiring.i dun really like shopping. =D walkin around yeah.shopping no.its so hard to find the perfect gift.blahh.

today...i forgot to bring my nametag.urgh.had to BUY and wear the big ugly one.sigh.got suan like dunno how many times.by dunno how many people.urgh.i am not spared.=P got lots of hmk to do...yup.shall do it later.heh.procrastinate.

tmr's match is against CHIJ-TP.sigh.hope we can win and give hui and nice and wonderful birthday gift.a skl won.heh.everyone's having their tournaments now.oh well good luck people.

i wanna win. xD to savour the victory.materialistic? who isnt.

flag day was tiring.*yawns

had legion in the morning.chaired it.with the voice of mine.heh.anyway.no one could go for curia cept for this sec one.i repeat.sec one. i feel so bad.anw she went.thats cool.at least we have one person there.

went to town with the seven minus shirs. crap crap crap all the way.haha.cool.seemed a long time we actually go out in a group.called people up to help me.stupid.only nik came.haha.ben n his excuse of i just got home.blah.oh well.i got 10 bucks from my junior.whoohoo.freakin rich.i want a treat ya dawn?lol.

my phonebill will soar up.heh.glad and her callin of people.urgh.and mistaken stuff. oh and pranks.thanks arz.wth.haha.took pics too.=D

finished at 4.30 plus. went back to tm.sat at mac for...2 hours?cool shit. talked about lots of stuff.mostly crap.haha.i love crappin with them.the topics we talked about are seriously crap.haha.shant go into details.but its uber funny.oh well.pj n her fren joined us too.ultimate crap day.haha.

skipped class.im so nice. -nods-

im resting at home now...while the others are listening to boring stuff about note-taking.

yesterday was very...eventful.lots of stuff happened.somehow this week lots of stuff happened.oh well.what fun. stayed back to help out in the sec one's campfire.can say that is wasnt too bad, thou could be improved much more.the sec ones are much more mature that what we were in sec one.serious. u should watch how they dance.phwoar. haha.ok. fun la.for the cheering part.that's about it.and their items. 1/5 did a skit.haha.my class! gogogo. gonna lose my voice.that's why im resting today.tmr there's cip.dont wanna miss that out.if not have to go for class.blah.

oh agnes lost her phone.called n called...one stupid freaking bastard picked it up.tried to use a tamil accent to trick us.it so worked.wth.he was like 'call me tmr.im busy now' -line cut-. oh fk u. why are there so many bastards around.and apparently he was in woodlands.tell me.from our skl,lets give the cab driver 5 min to pick another passenger.in 15 min time, would u even be in woodlands. hur?! if he's not a bastard, tell me who is. the normal reaction of a GOOD CITIZEN would be to hand the hp over to the cab driver.and NOT TAKE IT.urgh.gawd.

just saw the con camp photos.yeah im slow. =p i so love candid photos.wth.

oh my.beybey called my hse n hp.sigh.gotta go doc.blahhh.

i hate being sick.hate it hate it hate it.-chants-

and i think i made it worst.oh well.at least i got all ur valentine's day gifts.haha.things to note. 1.i went out with hui to get them. 2.i spent lesser then her. wahahahaha. u should roughly know what it will be like dunch ya.

today i felt horrible.stupid throat.damn pain.nose giving me probs too.told u that the weather was a killer.its affecting my body.urgh.didnt have the mood to do anything.then again,not that we have anything fun to do.sat in the hall for 2 hours.break here and there.but long enough for my back to start acting up.now its aching too. i feel REALLLLY old.urgh.

didnt go for tution either.told my frens that i was sick.haha.went to tm with hui to get the gifts. u all should be grateful.i got u all gifts.=D and i drank lots of water.yes jn mama.or dada.haha.wth. hope tml will be a better day for me. forgot to bring my phone to skl today too.explains why im bored.=

oh yay.im smart.jn said it.=))im smart. and we're THE beautifuls.haha.crap.gotta get my rest now.shucks.stupid weather.URGH.btw com's msn still down.

im feeling really tired. and having a sorethroat now. damn.i really dont want to get sick.yesterday's weather was a killer.got burnt.heh.red red.today's training made it more red.lala..im gonna be a lobster.haha.

match was really really nerve-wrecking.thou i didnt show it.omg.9-8.super close.was trailing behind all the way.wth. its like can win them but didnt play consistency.that's what coach said.oh well.still got 6 more skls to go.next hurdle is to be prepare for the 3 matchs in a row.that's like -open jaws- yeah. yesterday's match took almost 2 hours. bahh. at least i got my pizza as a reward today.haha.thanks fio.

tml's camp.day camp.wth.but we get to bring our hps.yay.so msg ya.haha.val val.msg until u reach the checkpoint.lol. mountaineering.haha.like we go mountaineering at all.what a course.retards.

my com's msn is still down.damn.internet is abit konked out too.better rush.

lots of stuff happened. sad.happy.delightful.mournful.hopeless.happy.sad. yeah.lots of stuff happened. kinda feeling numb. and my throat is sore. ouch.

i feel so unappreciated.stupid skl.

[edit] u know.for once chinese tution wasnt a bore. im serious.im gonna pass chi!!! [edit]

hmm. here's ur updated entry val.tml's our first match. may seem confident.or even over-confident. that's just a way to overcome the pressure. wait...what pressure? i dont think that we had any real pressure.its more like self-pressure if there's such a thing. self-pressure to excel. it used to be seniors expectations. but now we are the seniors.maybe living up to their expectations? hur. im just gonna play my best. STC...there's a chance u know.

just read the newspaper. the gen y section. words can be so...misleading."bonding rituals".man that sound freaky. i first imagined some blood and cult stuff. i think i read too many books. 0_o its actually harmless fun. well not so harmless according to the adults.oh wth. its only done to close friends. if its done to like someone u dont know,that's called bullying.a totally different issue. retards. " saying no to these rituals is all the more difficult since youngsters interviewed say this treatment is generally reserved for the 'popular kids'." eh...sooo u are going through it just so that u could be 'popular'? that's stupid.

tough love.reminds me of mr quah. was talking about other stuff with glad,ms tan and audrey. haha.yeah.MS julie tan.oh well.dont ask whyy.i suddenly said something related to him and saw her reeaction.immediately zipped it. sometimes words just come out you know.oops. i guess she hasnt entirely got out of it. oh well pray for her.

a debate on love.haha.absolutely retard.

val arent u going to thank me? for the entry.haha.im so gonna get my gelare treat.even if i lose can i still have it? pretty plssssssss.

been long since i touched a com. well to me its long.urgh. my com's msn is down.cant log on.so using my mom's one.windows messenger.how outdated.cant seem to install the latest msn.

training today was....[blank]. it isnt entirely great,neither is it bad.tourn is looming around the weekends. its on mon. all three sports have tourn on mon.how fun. will be playing.im not too nervous compared to previous years.suprise suprise. its my last year playing.i want to do well. prefectionist? nah.wait till u see chelsea.haha.that's a real perfectionist. claps. oh well let fate decide.

you know,sometimes fate seemed to be something stupid to believe in.i believed in fate too many times, that i dont think i have a chance at anything if its not given to me.sound pampered.well maybe. if like something that i thought that i could have is suddenly taken away from me,i wouldnt make much of a scene but just let it go.because i think that its fate. i think that i had let go too many chances, im used to it.its not much of a terrible heartbreak but more of numbness. so what's one more letting go. i used to say i dunno.but i think that's the answer to ur qns.if ur reading this.

tmr's a holi and im stuck at home.no freedom.just great. i should get married. to my books.

scratch the previous post.i decided to delete it.it was a spur of the moment. if anyone read it. im sorry to whoever who read the crude language. am feeling much better. i think its me. i can never hold a grudge.its not always good. maybe i might if the person really hurt me.but never been that stage so yeah. tml's selections.hmm.we'll see how sporty our sec ones can be. lets see my week.

tue-selections,training
wed-chi orals course, amaths tution
thurs-training.
fri-training

so packed.in between there's tons of hmk too.

here's the photos.credits to ji.haha.lalala. tada.

tml there's a party.after party there's skl.urgh. hmk here i come.

nerd. 0_o

scratch the previous post. i found my wallet.haha.guess who got it. my vice-principal.she's like damn nice and all.=)

im so dead tired.just got back from skl not too long ago.had parents nite.was running around skl with char.haha.husband and wife.what crap.so we were walking aimlessly and decided to annoy ji and glo.haha.took pictures.waiting for ji to upload them.

before parents nite.had sec one orientation and training.had to make a speech.like wth.nvm.so training was like..dots.whatever. anw,before skl ended and stuff.had to finish all my unfinished work.lugged all the ss books down to the teacher's shelf.sian.

tourn's starting soon.24th jan.wow.we got all 3 CHIJ skls in our group.good chance.heh.got my tennis shirt.its quite nice actually. was talking to cherlie about the sec ones. i mean.pls if you dont annoy us,we wont make ur skl days a living hell.get a life. but the majority of them are quite decent.

im feeling crap.

i feel so screwed up. why. i hate this. lost my wallet. guess what's inside. my IC. fk stupid of me to bring my IC along with me everywhere i go.urgh. hundred bucks. lucky CNY is aroundd the corner. havent told my parents yet. praying damn hard now.

didnt have the mood to do my hmk.but then the whole day i was distracted.urgh.emaths was fun thou.

"can anyone come up and tell the class how to do this qns?"
mrs lim.

-silence-

"i'll give chocos."
mrs lim

"me!me!me! i know!!"
haha.me

i got my chocos.=) emaths is alrite.i can score.amaths just sucks.went for tution yesterday.oh my.was lagging the whole way.i just suck at amaths pls.lots of people there.yeah.but was so tired when i got there.wanted to doze off.

packed to the brim for tml...skl.2nd dry-run.actual orientation.tennis.banner.parent's nite. im so not gonna burn out.yeah. and the posuer isnt making things better.

yesterday was nice.today's just damn screwed.i wonder what's tmr.

lord pls help me.

today was crap.seriously crap. urgh blogger.its in freaking chinese.haha. shall try not to be vulgar. pardon my words if i do.

"you are all so adroable, and cute and responsive..."
-ms aileen tan on 4/8 my class. whoohoo.

that was sweet.coming out from a teacher's mouth. but then again. its the truth. heh. we oh so rock!! come on 4/8 we can do it.give them distinctions!

ok.crappy part comes. prefect's training. it was actually alrite,given the fact that i had no buddy to crap to...sigh. glo had something on.claire,jillian.mabel had pfa council mtg. char came late.hui was busy with prefects council.haha.sat with my group.boombastic.haha.we rock. had to do punishment cos i didnt cut my nails.im really sorry people.but we had fun eh. den came the q&a session. urgh crap. skl rules are crap. crappy crappy crap. some didnt even make sense.oh well.

trained for eh.5 min? sorry becks.i think its my mood swings.sigh. was feeling really down.like something bad happened.but i have no idea what it is.sigh. physical was cool.althou my arm had like sharp pains.i'll alrite now.i think. runs tml.2 rounds.lalala.lets continue getting 12 min and below.

tennis tourn is in 2 weeks.i cant stand it.i am not ready.im really not ready.im not physcially and metally prepared.i dont have the stamina.if we are going against some of the best skls...my mind can just give up.being in the team is alrite.trying to get into the semis is the stressful part.i really really want to lead the team with pat into the semis.wishful thinking some might say. i dunno. but i really really want to.REALLY. we have the capablilty.i just know it.let it be my earnest and longing wish from u lord.pls.that we can get into the semis. Mingquan once said,"putting in ur best may not be enough.i want you to put in more than you can ever give in each and every match you play."

i should really stop sighing.sigh...

today was cold. as in cold cold.wore my pullover. ran in the morning.had cold sweat after that.i think im weak after the bouts of flu...shucks. ran for 10.36 min.haha.cool shit. that's like fast for someone that doesnt run during trainings cos of flu.lol. anyway...forgot my running shoes.now i got a damn blister.sulks.

changed into my uniform and found out i forgot my nametag.that's where the pullover comes to the rescue.-winks- wore it the whole day. shirs u better call me.i cant log into msn. its screwed up.stupid com.

i was born smart.what about you?

im boreeeedddddddddddddd. i get bored easily. amuse me pls. boreddd. and you might wonder why im not ranting about the huge hmk pile the teachers lovingly gave to us. i left my file back in skl. smart me.haha. i got my emaths graphs hmk, vs ss paper,ss notes,ss paper to photocopy,chemistry worksheet in there.not forgetting some notes i wanted to read through. sighh. msn stinks.i cant log into it at all.darn computer. was researching for some eng project before i came here. yeah.

i cant step down till june.by then chi o's will be around the corner.i have no idea how im gonna manage my time.anyone wants a job? be my personal time manager.haha.i'll give you chocos in repay.=)) Responsibility.there would be more to come.pressure to excel and all since you are a leader.be an example.urgh. i would really like to get into tpjc.or acjc.gotta work hard for it.last year was like all tennis and prefects and legion and biblequiz stuff.not much time is spent on studying at all. if there's ever any spare time. yeah u get the glory and all but ur grades do suffer. im a living example. so sec threes, manage ur time well.cos u will be getting lots of leadership stuff to handle.

what's up with the song true-ryan cabrera. Everytime i turn on the radio i hear it. heard it at training too.fio was singing it eh.haha.music...the local bands are coming up.cool.pug jelly and electrica are the more famous ones. but like the government isnt supporting the trend.that's sad.not everyone can excel in music.only a selected few.so they should be recognised. for me, i cant play the piano for nuts.haha.never tried learning,never will.i'll be disgracing the musicians.haha.

oh ya.im the social studies rep.beat that. apparently they chose me cos i wasnt in class.wth. thanks arz.haha. mrs lopez....i'll cope.

im a good conversationist. -beams-

//oh my.really.haha.i think the teachers will be keeping an eye on me. lol. thanks anyway. HUGS.

just finished updating the tennis blog.haha.yeah.we have one. credits to WW[wife wife]. jan and val. haha. check it out. tennis blog .

anyway.today was the investiture.was freaking embaressed. imagine this.u walk up to stage.u hear "cheryl cheryl cheryl cheryl........" at the sides. people wispering. they go " oh lets cheer for ____" and all. when ur name is called. the cheers were loud.but u arent sure if its for real. i mean like are they cheering because u are well-liked or because of some other reasons. im not sure.sigh. oh well.i'll just have to wait till mon.

was feeling real crappy at training pls. was drained at the end..sang songs.haha.hey at least it sort of work.i guess. this is one crappy song. "i am a C. i am a C-H. i am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N. i have a C-H-R-I-S-T in my H-E-A-R-T and i will L-O-V-E E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y." lalala.crappy? sure. =) its a spelling song.haha.

thanks guys.for eh. cheering? haha. really appreciate it.=)

wtf.

just go away. im complicated enough...shoo.

i dunno.what im doing online.urgh.shoot me.

got a gun?

slowly killing me. stupid sinus. urgh. its been going on for like 2 days. a sign of stress.maybe. im slowly gonna let go of the com.haha.but knowing me.i wont.haha. im afraid i will burnout. its like only the beginning and im getting stressed.urgh.i need the beach.seriously. i've got tennis anyway.whacking of balls.haha.not much help thou. yes it does relieve stress in a way.but its temporary. i still gotta face it head on. shucks. i need to scream.

//ben sucks.haha.idiot.frame me somemore.ass.dun worry i am fine now.

slowly its getting taxing. what can i say. its only the SECOND day. urgh...and i was kinda distracted today.uhuh. so shoot me.

training today.went for it. haha.ur efforts went down the drain.yeah.but didnt play.couldnt risk getting seriously sick.tourn is in 6 weeks.yeah. imagine it. 6 weeks. i really hope the team would put in effort to win. i really badly want to get into the semis. we've been training hard. and i dont want to see our efforts go down the drain because of some minor mistakes. a game can be decided by one stupid fault.i dont think u would want that to happen do you.it happened to me before.the feeling was terrible.trust me. and with mr quah gone.all the more i want to get into the semis.just for him and the team.fio and sam came down today.grace came later. was kinda disappointed with the turn out for the sec 2s. oh well. if u dont want to be in the team.i shant waste my efforts on you. after all the team is made up of you.without you where would the team stand. telling me you hate the team.dont tell me you hate yourself too. that's sad.

no one's online.sigh. its only the first week of skl and they expect the student leaders to be in full swing.thanks alot.cca orientation. the powerpoint slides.asses..

confuse me.try it.

// thanks fio.but u were suppose to tag ur blog address.haha.but thanks anyway.will try to lead the team up.haha.=D

//can.canning the can is cannot can for you can.cos canning the cannot can for you can is already cannot can.so u shouldnt can the canning of can but the canning of cannot can. CAN! i win?haha.

omgosh. its like 2005! haha.that sounds soo wronggg.

yeah.it hasnt sinked in yet. im a freaking SEC FOUR. get that junior in ur face.haha.wheee.im hyper. cant wait for tml. call me weird.[no not literally] idiot. oh.6.30 be in skl.haha.will i be awake.yeah.will i respond to you? no.haha

2004 had be fun.and saddening.both ways.

fun: tourn.pesta.sports day.obs.2nd august[my bday].camps.friends made. friendships strengthened due to hardships.KOREA.haha.

saddening: intensive trainings.my results.2nd august [his death].planning for camps.the latest disaster.friends distant.

both pros and cons yeah. 2004.sigh. well i love my friends. all those who been with me through thick and thin.through my happy times and eh. fustrating times.u've always been there.thanks. no amount of numbers can tally for the number of times you've been there for me.=) u know who u special guys are.

2004.a year that i would never forget.too many things that happend too close to my heart.it was too painful.his death. heading the team. getting high hopes for being in council only to be dashed. yeah.

havent u realised... stuff only happens after the turn of 2000.check this out.

2001-911
2002-SARS
2003- BALI BOMBINGS
2004-BIRD FLU ,IRAQ WAR, TSUNAMI

with 2004 with the most. ironic. what's 2005? i wonder.