_____originality

2006-02-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

i read denise's blog.and i miss mr quah.darn it.

2006-02-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

its been a month.ah crap.

hmm.today...went for all lessons cept maths.oh i forgot to announce. i got my nano!yeah.day was boring.as usual.went to tm for lunch.now i dislike tm too.it just seems sooooo predictable.urgh.bought denise's present.celebration's on thurs.u're gonna be 17!!!=)

my aunt asked if i wanted to go for st.nicks funfair.hah.like i would want to.my nose's giving me problems.its just so irritating. like something u want to get rid of but u cant.cos its attached to u.literally.

ciao.

2006-02-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

will you really be much stronger?wont it make you more cautious towards any other relationship you might be getting into next time?is that what makes human beings stronger emotionally?like going through a breakup and all those shit of losing something valuable? im asking cause i have no idea what the answer is.

oh well.skipped school today.got a mc thou..day was erm.alright.saw the airbus 380.woah was it huge!like super.maybe cos it was flying up close la.heh.oh yar.the freaking taxi surcharge was a whooping TEN BUCKS from that place.what a rip off.

i'll end off with another qns.
is 'not thinking' the only way of healing? many seems to think so thou.but isnt it like running away from the prob? heh.i'm in a curious mood now.

and i still dislike vj immensely.

2006-02-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

was i dillusional to think of a patch?sigh.i keep holding onto it.raH.i hate vj now.dont ask why.

erm.this entry is in-the-mood kinda entry.so yeah.im in the mood to hate vj.

2006-02-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

sigh.life's gotta move.so move with it.darn.unexpected stuff may either be good or bad.u wont know till much much later.and that stinks.e time.

anyway.today..skipped e whole day of lessons cept for bio tutorial.e last class.for who???giammy.haha.so we went to tm to get my contact lens solution.walked aimlessly.for goodness sake.it was tampines mall.what can u expect us to do there.and u may ask.so why in e world were we there? proximity.=D

changed my blogskin.cool eh.GREEN.i like green.and black.and brown.and white.and blue.and sometimes pink and purple.but mainly green.and black.and brown.and white.and blue.LOL.im so indecisive.righT.its just that i like all colours.-nods

its only a week and half left in tpjc.LOL>yay!!oh man.i seriously want to get into sajc.thou its far and all.i mean.its a freaking new campus! yeah yeah.u shouldnt choose base on that.blah blah.but everyone else is doing the same.bloody toots.lowers my chances of getting in.raH

sometimes i believe in fate.sometimes i dont.but i always know God has a plan for me.is that called believing in fate? what's fate exactly? try answering that.

entry's quite random.enjoy.

2006-02-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

Once,there was this girl,who met this wonderful and charming guy at a camp.At that time she didnt feeling for him.neither did he for her.But friends they were.soon, they were talking to each other online and stuff.random messages here and there.feelings werent really there.just fun having each other as friends that they could talk to.freely.He asked her out for a valentine's date.How sweet of him.he was interested in her then.but she wasnt really.thought they were just friends hanging out.but she felt she could really connect with him.so things went really well.and subsequently he asked her out several times.many times in fact.the girl found herself liking him too.thou they werent together yet,they had this weekly meet-up.a day which brightened both parties.then,one day he told her he love her.in a way she didnt expect.she found herself askin questions like,should i go for it?what if it didnt work out.what if he's faking it.what if its all just a rebound.the WHAT IFs.Then,she decided to be with him.it was a choice she'll never regret.time spent with him was the MOST memorable times in her life.her 16 years of life.all ten months.although yes,there were fights,they would always make up and forgive.still loving each other.it was so ideal.she loved him.he loved her.like those kind of sappy korean love serials.Then came e new year.they were sceptical about what was going to happen.the new sch they'll be in.the new friends they'll make.all that.finally,something happened that changed the realtionship that they had with each other.was it a mutual breakup?maybe it was.they didnt really know.it wasnt defined.and so now.she still loves him loads.truckloads.but he's unsure.please lord,bless him with e certainty to know what he wants.the courage to face the future.the knowledge that there's a girl somewhere in e world who still loves him alot.amen.

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story.nice eh.crap la.im listening to jay chou-an jing.yeah chinese song.my sis added it in.kinda sappy too.just nice for a sappy story.raH.

2006-02-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

hello faceless world.i have revived this blog.AND im also using a shared blog with ji. its with e links. arbileo. ciao

2006-01-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

why must it happen? WHY...why.why why why why.people tell me to be strong.u try being strong,it hurts.ALOT.

2006-01-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

its the fourteen.=)) ima happy girl.
happy happy happy.=D

there's always that one person that will have your heart.
-my boo

2005-10-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

just gotta revive this blog for awhile.urgh.o'levels coming closer.some papers had past.the important ones are nearing.am i prepared.i would wish to say i am,but i dont know.esp e humanes.geo and ss.always had been my weakest.not forgetting english.yeah.wow.english.cant seem to score for it thou.maths,sciences.prepared,kinda.ready,nah.i mean i dont know if i'm gonna blank out on the paper.i cant.well i cant afford to.unlike others,i have to rely on my remainding subs.all of them.chi's hopeless.that's 6.im not that smart to have 8 or more subs.school didnt give us a choice rmb.anyway,guess i'll just have to face it.all the 4 years of sec school life.gonna miss it darn badly.i dont mean to school,hell no.i mean the friends i meet.the memories there and all.the walk up the position ladder.heh.ciao

Read between the lines what's Fucked up and everything's all right Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive And I walk alone

*i dont ever wanna walk alone.not now.not ever.

2005-08-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

closing this thing done.o levels and all.bye

2005-08-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

im suprised people even cared about what i got.haha.not that its a bad thing thou.contented.but not totally happy with it thou.lol.chinese isnt my forte.i've got 6 other sub.lalalala...but im happy for that boy.haha.=P.

my nose had been leaking the whole day.thanks to some people in my class.owe it to you guys.raH.hate it when this happens.cant concentrate on anything.too busy sniffing away.luckily its a friday today.

the whole of this week was packed.lets see.mon sports carnival.movie in town.on tue.movie and dinner.on wed.bite race.on thurs.chem pract.rah.on fri.results.

no wonder my immune is getting low.again.sigh.

2005-08-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

hello.been slacking real bad lately.just scraping through my hmk.not even revising.raH.my dreammmm.sigh.haha.nvm.i can do it.=)

today was sports carnival.sound so grand.bullshit.haha.total waste of time.anyway, headed to town to catch bewitched.haha.not nice.then again,im not much of a movie critic.so yeah.go watch if u really want to.brisk walked from cine to lido in like...under 10 min.haha.woots.manage to get 6 tix.thou the queue was bloody long.yeah.we rock shirs.

tmr.is.national day!haha. might be seeing walking national flags around town tmr.haha.today was fun.like seriously fun.thou we were shacked.yeah.well.tmr will be fun too.and wed.haha.wed...wear red!!

//there's 3 c/s heryls in 4/8 .lmao.

2005-08-04T16:10:00.000+08:00

i like yest.and tue.and sat.and fri.haha. yest's bb lunch was absolutely YUMMY.haha.thanks guys.for the lunch and present. totally adore it. =D

ok.brithday aside.i realised i didnt really study the whole of that few days.so screwed.so screwed.im losing steam.rah.even my emaths isnt its usual tops. i can only safely say my amaths is doing well.the rest.hah.laugh please.all my subjects seemed to be affected someway or another.quite scared.no acutally.im damn fooking scared. I MUST GET INTO A JC IN THE FIRST THREE MONTHS. MUST MUST MUST. DIE DIE MUST.argh. vjc vjc vjc. i wanna dream.cannot ar.haha...

thanks for everything! hugs.

2005-07-31T16:38:00.000+08:00

heys.a week gone. a birthday coming.thanks for friday.real sweet of you to think up of it.thou i might'nt show it...really.thanks. sat was fun.all around sentosa.the sand the sun and the people.actually minus the sun.heh.it was pouring for awhile.oh well.i kinda enjoyed it.and today.the memorial service.as i walked into the chapel...i dunno.kinda like.i wished he was back.which was absolutely impossible.attended mass twice.it was like.all of us were bonded by one thing.to remember him.or so.yeah.

gotta study.

i need some quiet time.

2005-07-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

yest was the most tiring day ever in a week.every thurs to be exact. to hell timetables. 3 sciences all an hour each.in addition, sci pract.raH.my mind was saturated.

hello tennis girls. i've got the details of the memorial services and all yest.yeah.trying to gather the ex seniors,peers and juniors.its on sun 31st july and 2nd aug. erm.msg me for the details yeah.

the ss thing in dhs was quite interesting.no kiddin.haha.the woman went thru the notes so darn fast.like "blah ok next.blah ok next." haha.we were trying to catch up.stress.

yeah.stress.its getting to me.doing weird stuff.haha.ah well.i can cope.
i think.

2005-07-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

hello. my birthday's coming.haha.soon. 2nd august. rmb that. rah.

anyway.updated my wishlist.yeah.if you're broke, a simple card will do.haha.really.school's alright i guess.slowly getting the hang of things. had eng prelim orals today.ahh screwed. oh well.

val- linked.haha.link me too.

wishlist
-converse shoes
-dunks
-slingbag
-ipod mini
-money.haha
-anklet

<3

2005-07-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

does stress make you cry more easily?

HAHA.IM HAPPY.

2005-07-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

i typed an entry out yesterday.apparently it didnt show.rah. anyway. hmk's piling up. not complaining thou. part of sec four life. yup. everyone's getting stressed. immune system shutting down.haha.susan frm church just called.guess i'll be going then.haha.sound so reluctant.maybe.ah well.

just watched sweet sixteen on mtv.omgosh.so extravagant.i was like ahh.haha.im not rich.dont think i'll be celebrating my sweet sixteen with a bang. oh yeah.gotta type out my tetimonial again.cos the diskette couldnt work.raH

just another entry for the week.

2005-07-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

another week gone.i think posts are gonna be like more sullen and emo from now onwards. mocks and prelims looming over.mocks in 2 weeks? mock to prelims..7 weeks? im counting the days carefully.haha.rah. slowing getting the hang of PnC.its like so irritating.i dont understand why they added PnC into O's.its not helping!

alrite.anyway.finished up my english oral practice with ms pilo.hah.she gave me 28/40.im kinda satsified.she's not.wants 33.wth.almost failed my picture conversation.haha.i cannot talk about a picture.gah.
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.forgotten already. sial la.think what.lol

.heh.thanks for the diskette. =)

.love ya too ann. ehh.i sound like glad.haha.

2005-07-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

God said we should forgive.
so i did.

God didnt say we should forget.
so i dont.

uhhhhh. i still hate people saying stuff behind my back LOUDLY.like as if i cant hear.hello.say it in my face. then i'll love you.
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//we'll be here.yeah.trust

2005-07-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

sigh.school's back.no more youth day.no more holidays.RAH. we had this emaths band thingi today.haha. stupid shirs.whatever she said came true.and she hit my head,wtf bitch.haha.hur.painful know.
there's tons of work to be done.mostly revision.OH OH. today,we were holed up in the bio lab for TWO FREAKING HOURS and ten mins.haha.omg.was like hurry hurry hurry to chelsea.haha.poor girl.had cramps. the oh-so-going-at-bullet-train-speed teacher spent 15 min talking and explaining how to ace a question about drawing tables for your conclusion.retard.and the next 5-10 min talking about drawing of a leaf.lmao.still proclaim that she would be faster than our previous teacher(who was actually fast).rah. hui and i went down to whack some balls to release steam.haha.i miss tennis.sigh.

2005-07-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

am i slow or is friendster's new layout u g l y. haha.so not user friendly.haha.and i have no clue what PnC is about.actually...i do.but i dont understand the questions.so yeah.rah.

come online!!

2005-07-01T16:31:00.000+08:00

pep talk.
distinctions here i come.murr.

2005-06-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

school's back.stressful.but its like the usual.some changes made.timetable changed.urm.
bio and phys teacher changed. mrs boo is damn funny.haha.phys is fun. rah. haha.some wont agree.
yup.hmk's piling up.haha.i had fun doing hmk.but its like.i dunno.i feel weird.like mug so hard just for o'lvl.den get into a jc.and mug hard again for a'lvl. go uni (if i ever la) den mug for degree.den blah blah.continue the cycle of learning.non stop.rah.life.when is the ultimate goal? i dont think there's even any. people are continuously trying to be the best.even if at a time they are,someone will eventally top them.then they will try to top that person.never ending.forever moving.
i think this is not making sense.oh well.take it that stress was getting to me.

//take care.rest well alright? so that thurs you'll be ok. =) i know you will.
//thanks ben. 6 pts.haha.no way.
joyful joyful we adore thee...god of glory lord of love...haha. coughs.

2005-06-26T16:42:00.000+08:00

dkglbnkldsgmbklvmpoaudgidjbkl!!! urgh. been trying to finish up my holiday hmk.rah.almost done.almost.haha.afew missing questions here and there that i have no idea how to do.yup.almost done. know what. my mom's like stressed out for me.WTH.im like not stressed out..yet.and she is.damn irritating.rah.

oh well.school's tmr.i dunno.dont have really any strong feelings like "I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO SKL" that sort.just.alrite back to school.again.hah. o'lvls around the corner.get excited.im sure not.

//school's actually alright.not as bad as you think.just take things as they come alrite?=) talk to me anytime.
//the serves that apparently help us win eh.yeah.tc then.
//huR.im fine now.thanks for your concern.haha.who writes mushy stuff on their blogs i wonder.

2005-06-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

my body's aching.urgh.yesterday my elbow had this numbing pain.dont think its tennis elbow.cos.its on my right arm.hah.painful.my mom massage.ouch.

went to the dental today.stupid dentist.tighten until one of the brackets came out.fcuking pain.couldnt eat properly.toot him.dont go to still road dental clinic.they extort your money!!! haha.nah.kiddin.

im like experiencing pain the whole day.urgh. i wanna watch war of the worlds. heh

2005-06-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

today was fun.haha.let me start from the beginning. pat was LATE.huR.like late late.waited for her in the canteen.didnt go down yet.then had training.usual doubles pairing groups.we won all.yay.haha.-smirks okok.eh.then....we found out they lost 66 balls.punishment.sec ones are in a sorry state.cept for few.ah well.becks bday celebration.cake smeared.RAH. oh wait. imagine this.

hey pat take pic of me k.
eh ok. *fumbles around the cam
ay wait.wait for them to cross first.
*students crosses
take your time k.
*hui n becks came from behind
SMACK
yay.we got pat.

haha.that was fun.then changed into clean clothes.went to tm for lunch.
my day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECKY AND JOCELYN!

2005-06-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

borrowed a book.engrossed in it now. =)

i hope he didnt teach much in tution.rah.oh ya.going training tmr.hope everything works out right.yeah becks? =p kinda tired now.ciao.

2005-06-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

THE MOST IMPORTANT BODY PART-Author Unknown

My mother used to ask me: "What is the most important part of the body?" Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mom." She said, "No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon." Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mom, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes. She looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind." Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge. Over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No, but you are getting smarter every year, my child." Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandpa. She asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?" I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. She saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part gave me in the past, I have told you were wrong and have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson." She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said. "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder." I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?" She replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it." Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others. People will forget what you said. . . People will forget what you did. . . But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel. True or not, the story makes you stop and think. Be blessed. Be a blessing. Get your shoulder ready . . . and share this message to everybody you know. They also need to know.

going for training tmr. =)

2005-06-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

feeling drained.heh.been engrossed in a book whole day.from last night.just finished it.police thriller. hard landing. nice book.undercover cop and all.makes me wonder if people can know everyone else's true identities.impossible eh. did little work today.feeling under accomplished. rahh.

--u'll get your moolah.guranteed.22 bucks eh.haha.

--girl ah. m&ms are wayyy better.huR.what smarties.

2005-06-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

i want 50 cents!

haha.ben.go invest in a better pair of specs.did 3 SS essays in a row.solid.heh.beginning to get excited over amaths.like i can do this!yay.haha.cos yest tried a qns from a friend's book.dang.couldnt do at all.and it was supposedly easy.oh well.

--girl come online! i wanna talk to you.

2005-06-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

was reading my old blog.revivalsoul.yeah.read till the page couldnt upload.i guess it kinda got lost in the web.ive changed.and i miss sec three life.its like the year of exposure for me.the stuff i get to do and experience.shant go on.dont feel like it.

2005-06-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

"ask us the sex question again."
"eh...ok."
*pauses
*shows ten fingers. "ten."

haha.lmao.its a nice movie.on a nice day.haha.14th.=) go watch if you hadnt.and i got a green hairband! courtsey of someone.thanks.haha.kinda broke my other one at the party.oops.

i love today. <3

//sorry girl...cant accompany you for the chalet.cos my mom allow only one more day..heh.really sorry.

2005-06-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

rah.im done with the template.haha.dont bother praising me.i ripped it off. but its so nice...orangey and tennisy and all.haha.betcha denise will like it.cos its orange.haha.did loads of hmk today.i feel accomplished.hah.emaths,amaths,ss.i've done my geo hmk already.minus the caj.i feel nerd too.haha. i miss tennis.

2005-06-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

i've got a stiff neck.hah.i think i slept wrongly.oh well. sheri's party was fun.and worth it.thou the alcohol wasnt alot.gah. was watching some chinese variety show.saw some slick moves.i was like whaooo.they dance so well.omg.haha.i turning more cheena.haha.in preparation for chi orals.talking about that.not sure when the actual date is.hah. i miss ranting on school.technically,i miss school.sac.my four years,well almost four years had been somewhat a smooth sailing.yes,there were ups and downs and all,but it was smooth.-nods.

sec one,
haha.still rmb the days when our class had so much conflict and all.screamings and cryings.but we still got over them eh.1/7.the class,teachers hate and like.its like a distant memory.from p6 to sec one.huge jump.new friends.new foes.i dunno why.haha.rmb freevote? the trend of the past. yeah.it also almost resulted in a break in friendship.luckily its past. recalling back,it was kinda stupid.going online everyday to vote for people.HAH.tennis.mr quah was super strict.i guess we were the last batch to have a taste of his dominance.the sji camp and trainings after that was still vivid in my mind.the unreasonable tortures or so it was named.it actually mould us into better people.you could say we were lucky to have experienced it.i rmb the weekly meetings dom and jiating held.ahh.hell.never too glad to have an excuse to run away.

sec two,
hmm.the conflicts and all still stayed.cant expect a complete change can you.jealousy presides all.lol.the rumors the blackmails.imagine it.sec two.haha.oh well.rmb the test-tube project?lol...oh well.friendships grew strongher.superficality yeah.but dig deeper.tennis.seniors said he relaxed.from previous years.judging by the punishments and physicals i highly doubt it.the comando pushups.huR.the stabalizers.ten rounds the field in 13 min.are just some i cant forget.but agreed.sji camp was much slack that year.i rmb i was food ic.the responsibility was unbearable.think managing food for the whole camp for 5 days.you'll get white hair! but i didnt.hah.had tons of scolding thou.oh! i rmb.my nose bled like fuck.haha.sorry.but seriously.it didnt stop.he even had to personally pinch my nose.and it STILL didnt stop.gah. it was like blood flowing/dripping all over the sink.it was dinner time.i guess people got to grossed out to eat.=p.ah well.streaming into an eight class.

sec three,
oh the glorious days spent.haha.started out as a damn geek class.i was like eh.why im here and all.but it turned out for the better i guess.got to know my clique.and strengthen friendships between my friends.all i rmb of sec three was tennis.haha.my life sort of revolved around it at that time.beginning of the year.some crap shit misunderstanding caused a drift.i've put it away.i hope you do to.rollarcoaster ride this year.damn freaking emotional.rahh.uppp den downn.den up den down.thought i couldnt take it.at least he's resting now.i think because of this we grew stronger as a team? i dunno.took over to head the team.with pat as my vice.=) sji camp was better i think.with the bballers.ran it hand in hand with agnes.yup.

sec four,
not exactly a year but close to.half a year had passed.more acadamic based year.not much of tennis.just the tournaments.haha.great year i must say.we hadnt been winning more than 2 schools since dunno when.but we broke record.haha.sounds so grand.but the real record will be broken if we got into the semis and finals.like our seniors wayyy before us.i just hope he's proud of us.no more sji camp i think.the whole management has changed.no more team talks.no more personal touch.no more NOTHING.and i dont feel comfortable.i dunno.i just have this feeling that its changing.and i cant do anything about it.i pray for a sign that he gives.to guide.he has been guiding all this while.and im grateful.

as you can see.my sec life revolves around tennis tennis tennis.it has became part of my life.and when i leave this school.i wont miss anything but tennis.not as a cca.but tennis as a family. what else is there to miss about sac anywayy.oh i realised something.for all sji camps my group came in first.haha.something to gloat about.insignificant to many,special to me.

--message to YOU.you you you.haha.special parrot.see the first! and only i think. ilu.<3

2005-06-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

starting on my hmk pile.yupp. you know.i was just watching channel U.dont ask why.anywayy, this 'superstar' programme came up.apparently its suppose to choose as the title says, a star. i dunno.it seems so...blah.watching those people.singing high notes.dancing fantastically. wowing the audience.makes me wanna think where do they all come from.Hah.the hidden talents.-gasps some took the meaning of perseverance to a whole new level.agree?

we are living in a superficial world.that nothing seems to care. but i know, who stands a place in my heart.

my friends.you guys know who you are.special few...aww sigh.haha.

my family.thou sometimes it contridicts.i hate and love them.hah.shoot me.

and special parrot.haha.parrots tweet?lol. this SPECIAL parrot talks alot alot.haha.

<3 =)
fun time yesterday.woots

2005-06-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

the previous entry...i dunno. not going to delete it thou.its a reminder. i dont even know why i deserve it.im not being haughty and all but seriously. i dont think i did anything THAT wrong to make you do that to me.

ah.forget it.because of that.today was a quiet day.tv,work,online. satisfied? kinda.i got a shelter over my head. damn hypocritical.thats all i can say.i want to go for the party...i really want to.i hope she allows man.

2005-06-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

BITCH.bloody bitch.ruin my life.GO ON. see if i care. first time it hurt so much. BITCH!

2005-06-06T07:50:00.000+08:00

taman negara.haha.i'll try to sum it up in simple words.

day one. 31/05-1/06
bloody tired.
sleeper train.urgh.
sampan ride.3 hours.
butt numb.
mini waterfall.woots

day two. 2/6
hike up.9 km.
canopy walk. im afraid of heights.
stung by bee. toot the bee.
orang asli village.cool shit.not literally.
rapid shooting! more like splashing water.anyhow.
night walk.im afraid of dark.

day three. 3/6
leave taman resort.
caving.whao.nice
stay at plantation resort.
free time.even nicer.

day four. 4/6
plantation study.
plantation contract.inside joke.
free time.sleep time.
leave plantation resort.
stay at transit hotel.blahh.
settlement study.

day five. 5/6
didnt sleep from day 4.
train ride home.
reached at ten plus.

yup.my trip.haha.ask me more if u wanna know. pics will be up....soon.CLAIRE!haha.nahh.
most gossips are heard during camp.i realised.hah.went jogging.whao.lost stamina.diee. oh and i overcame my fears.haha. praise me.nahh.

2005-05-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

i guess.every sec 4 is rejoicing now.till the results comes out.lol.WOOTS. now i can look forward to taman. yes.taman. gonna have a blast.i know i will.=) till then...haha.

4 hours of amaths tmr.sigh.never get enough of studies do we.nvm. i just saw a dare pic.omg.i look weird.hah.oh well.

//ben. im smart. huR

2005-05-28T20:24:00.000+08:00

stuff usually happens when you least expect it to.yeah.thanks god.for the fucking appropriate timing. rah.but then again.its not his fault.its not anybody's.its mine.its my life anyway. somewhere in my mind something says nothing seems important now.THEN AGAIN,somewhere else in my oh-so-cramped mind says chi o's chi o's. thats where i get confused.listening to my mind too much may be more of a hindrance.

//serious.oh my.you better tc alrite.heh.

//haha.yeah.thanks.party can wait.now its o's.

//TN buddy.haha.much much better thanks.we are gonna have SO much fun in tn.den we'll overcome the lessons we missed together.hah.

//check your inbox ya.

2005-05-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

been missing out on school these two days.should have known better and went to the doc early.now its dragging and i dont think im really prepared for chinese.feeling much better now thou.nose has cleared.yeah.still kinda drowsy from the medicine. being sick isnt nice.especially less than a week before the all-important paper of my sec life. rahhh.

notice how people goes "euuuuu" and "mii" and "lubb"?
i gotta stop adding extra alphabets in my words.sighhh.lol

i cant stand not taking a jab at them. =)

parent teacher day tmr.i hope my dad doesnt collapse.

oh.and my sis watches happytreefriends. if you dont know what it is..its DIGUSTING.its gruesome and all.irony is...its cartoon. yay to the ever-changing world of ironies.

2005-05-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

-coughs

having sorethroat.gahh.and im not doing anything to help it.=pp school's tmr.with the taman negara talk.haha.cant wait.

throat's damn irritating.

8 days to chi os.

9 days to taman.

2005-05-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

results back.rah.bad.real bad.sigh.chi o's coming.not prepared.i guess...distraction plays a part.tv,com,etc.yeah.gotta burn oil again.i hate that.my throat's itchy.haha.coughing is irriataing.oh well.better than fever i guess.tmr there's this church thing.dont wanna go.waste time.im sorry.i rather study chi.and go for the normal mass.

sometimes people take things for granted.
sometimes they ponder too much on the wrong stuff.
sometimes they do wonderful things that make u smile.
sometimes they just break the smile.
sometimes they want to say something but nothing comes out.
sometimes they say too much.
sometimes they do a cautious act.
sometimes they do a rash act.
this is life.isnt it.

8 days to chi o's.
9 days to taman.
15 days to...

i dont like these numbers.cept for the taman one.haha.=P

2005-05-19T16:46:00.000+08:00

hmm. MIA for awhile.suppose to be till 30th may.thats chi o's.rah. preparing for it.hmm.pressure's building up.had this pep talk by both our principals.blah blah.mye results shocking.blah blah.haha.you know.the usual. getting papers back tmr.i wanna see my emaths results.i think thats' the only results im looking forward to.=P pizza hut eh beybey.lol.

3 weeks.i can wait.yup.i will. =)

2005-05-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.got back my old com.now every page i go has an error.great.oh well. gotta start chi o's revision soon...like say.tues.haha.mon's a rest day for me.shopping if my mum allows.

luckiest.=)

2005-05-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

i talked to god. =) call me weird or whatever.i just know i have him to rely on. felt bloody emo the whole 2 weeks. finally like FINALLY.myes over. gonna fkin fail today's papers.but but but.its my fault.so ya.prepared for the red marks.not sure if my parents will be thou. EMO-ness be gone. im not gonna wallow in sorrow and grief and self-pity. self-pity.pffft.im gonna erase it from my dictionary.

lovely time spent today.

2005-05-11T15:17:00.000+08:00

life is amusing you know. like how it take stuff away from you when u want it.and when you are like contented with what you have, it gives it back to you.in a way like taunting you. and how it makes you think that you can change what u have.to get what you want.u cant.but it make u think that you can.afterall u cant bring what u have to heaven.the ultimate destination.can you.

this is just aimless thoughts.it doesnt make sense.if it does to you.then goody for you.yay.

im contented.and taunted.

2005-05-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

Application for DSA to VJC

Application Criteria

Singaporean and foreign students who fulfill the minimum criteria for JC admission or equivalent, and have attained outstanding achievements in one or more of the following arenas:
-Academic excellence, including subject top performers and medallists/prize winners in international/regional/national Mathematics, Science and Informatics Olympiads or related competitions/research projects
-Performing arts talent (with instructor's recommendation)
-Sporting achievements, including representatives of international/regional/national (top 4 teams) or combined schools competitions (with teacher's/coach's recommendation)

wth.i should just base on my results to go there. top 4 teams.sac right...combine..not even. why did i even take tennis in the first place. performing arts seem better.all u need is to be good at it and have a teacher's recommendation.urgh. captain.as if that role can help me.

sciences was alright today.at least the midnight buring did some help.

sorry for the emo post.

2005-05-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

ffinally.FINALLY. its the weekends.oh the agonizing wait.hahaha.

paper was short today.1 1/2 hour.woots.ended at like 9.30am. yup. went to tm bk for branch.came back and pia amaths.there's like so much stuff to revise.hur.bye bye A1.biology is slowing draining my brain cells away too.with all those memorising. o levels.now i know the feeling.its aint nice.

halfway.halfway.finish the race.

2005-05-05T17:56:00.000+08:00

splitting headache.grrr.

lets run the race together.

2005-05-04T16:05:00.000+08:00

ten.10.ten.10.ten.10.ten.10.ten.10.ten.10.ten...

wake me up.i was dreaming. havent talked like this for months.lalalalala.relieves whats inside me.thanks girl.

2005-05-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

im getting stressed over fucking chinese. cheryl dont usually get stress over chinese. grrrr. die chinese DIE. oh my. this is what chinese do to my brain cells.gotta cramp all the sec 3 words in a day. procrastinate sommore.clever me.

2005-04-30T15:59:00.000+08:00

oh my.im turning nerd.help.

went for legion.oh-so-wonderful girlfriend didnt want to go.fine lAAA.ggot kinda pissed.right nic? i cant believe them.wait actually i can.oh heck it.im retiring soon.woots. ate lunch.glad moved us from our comfortable spot at the coffeeshop to 85.thanks ar. i think i should watch OC and see for myself how hot alex really is.apparently i was listening to two people infactuated with her.sigh.the wonders of peers.

came home and headed for the books.did chinese.guess what.i studied 2 ke, and dozed off.haha.chinese isnt my forte.at all.hurr.decided to touch on social.haha.did notes.blasted the player.my ear's kinda numb now.gonna do geo later.all for the exams.the grades.the prefection.gah.

got the night to study too.haha.hope it lasts.my brain cells i mean.

yup.the beach is nice.=)

2005-04-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

im online again.hurray. had chi orals today.FLUNKED THEM LA. no thanks to my mind block. oh well its over.overrrrr. tution was sucky as well.gave up doing the paper after awhile.stupid cedar paper is soo hard.im serious.go try it.its @$^#%&*$#^*$%#*^&^%#$^%^. lol

//its just superficial satisfaction. go figure.

//yeah man.lets have bunk party at taman.wootss.

//thanks but no thanks for the offer.haha.

2005-04-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

ARGH. MY PHONE GOT CONFISCATED BY MY MOM. gahhhhhhhhh.

this sucks la.no phone.might be god's plan.exams are coming.BUT STILL.it sucks laa.luckily....lalalala.=p

today was mixture of good and bad news.

2005-04-20T20:24:00.000+08:00

shuck.double shucks.just got home from amaths tution.gahh.sec 3 work.K-I-L-L-E-R.had some help thou.still suck at it. saw ms pang on the way home. how could she thought of that.HOW COULD SHE. eeeeek.haha.pui pui pui.lol.i guess im not making much sense.

thought that i'll update this blog before mugging.yup.gotta work on my chi.seeing people putting effort make me seem as thou im not.haha.i do alrite.so there.

feeling much better now.from yesterday's illness.yay.haha.i get well faster than you ben.woots.whose body is weaker now hur.=p

2005-04-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

ffuckit.whataday man.URGH.

i hate the word "everyone/everybody". why cant you just name the people.im sure its not the whole world.

im going to school everyday,trying to learn new stuff.dragging my body there.listen to nonsensical rambling.having senseless fun in class.stress over performing up to expectations.seeing people faces.like i even bother.

coming down with a cold.i think im gonna suffer from fatigue.gahh.its always the case aint it.near the exams and all. *sniffs

oh.happy 5 shirs. =)

stupid people.

2005-04-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

i guess u could say yesterday's "bash" was ok.nothing great.beginning was bleagh.

hey girl,not sure what happened.cos maybe u didnt tell me the whole story.haha.anw...there are people around you for support alrite.dont stress up.cheerios ya.

skl's tmr.wonderful.

2005-04-15T15:59:00.000+08:00

yay.i didnt come online for a week.woots.that's good.for me..

my back is aching...i feel so damn old.blah.2.4km was yesterday.oh mann.could have just go and bang my head against the wall.urgh.7 position.what's that?!gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

5 items was alrite.=D 2.4km blah.but i'll still get my A.soo somehow its alrite i guess.

tmr's the con party..it feels awkward.somehow.hope to have fun thou.

[edit]
wooooot.go sac.gold with honours.modern dance. =)

2005-04-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

white.all glamorous in white. smile.

2005-04-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

screw this.screw that.

on a happier note.choir got gold.nice.im sure you all are really happy.good for you.=)

i've got phys test to do now.haha.take-home test. im not ready for 2.4km.uhh.anyone wanna run with me to ecp?frm my hse.haha.free lunch?lol.my toe hurts now.ah well. my back too.im getting realll old.

bye.

i saved it.

2005-04-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

im sick.and tired.gahh.

skipped legion.wanted to skip class.decided against it.should have thou.some class it was.

next week's confirmation.i havent gotten anything to wear.yeah.typical me..

*sniffs

2005-04-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

GAHHH. im soo freakin tired.TIRED TIRED TIRED.and why im i online you may ask.waiting for my hair to dry.haha.an excuse to use the com.msn's down.freak it.and no its not my laptop's problem.its their problem.hurh. its APRIL FOOL'S DAY.woot.fun day.

1st.prank.
stuck something up joce.haha.-smirks

2nd prank
switched classes with 3.5

3rd prank.
recess.got pranked.haha.innovative i must say.u know those mini oreo cookies?yeah well denise twisted it apart,scraped off the cream,and applied TOOTHPASTE on it. i repeat TOOTHPASTE. . smart me thought they were kind.urghh.spit it out.and yilin was just goin oh its edible.blah. *pukes

4th prank
went to prank the rest with the oreo cookies.

5th prank.
they turned my pencil case,bag,shoe bag inside out.haha.so funny.

6th prank
pilo's class.oh funny noises.

7th prank.
steph's shorts.haha.

that's all that i rmb.haha.cool isnt it. AFD.
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yawns.too tired.tmr there's legion.

2005-03-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to the dental to tighten my braces.now its hurting.dang.thought that i had tution today so rushed back.in the end,it was my bro's tution.not mine.urggh.so i have to rush back again on thurs cos mine is on thurs.didnt know.if not i could have stayed back for training.oh well.

hmk's coming in quite fast.yup.cant slackk.and tmr's wed.maths day.again.oh my week.

//yup.had fun.haha.=)

//why?jealous ar.lol.

2005-03-27T12:28:00.000+08:00

been away for quite awhile.fri was retardly fun.went for mass.had to stand outside the church to attend the good friday service.oh well.stood there for 2hours.haha.=p.headed to town afterwards.met up with jn,tpj,yilin and glad.walked around.then some smart fella decided to rollarblade.lol.imagine that.

so yeah.we cabbed down to ecp.blade for an hour.only glad and i blade.the rest rode their bikes.blading in jeans was weird.oh well.someone said that she could blade quite well.hoho.fell anyway.i didnt.=DD.nah.but it was fun.really.spent time with different people that day.yup.

yesterday.i thought i was late for legion.saw a whole group of sec ones congregating at the foyer.asked someone if sji arrived.well yeah.they were punctual.i was like oh shit.ran in.guess how many were there.THREE.i thought like there were a big group and both the prez and me werent around.only three.pathetic.oh well.=) went to prata shop and talked for around 2 hours plus.haha.it was nice know.just sitting there.catching up with friends.went for curia.it was REDUNDANT. nik that was REDUNDANT.haha. stayed in town for awhile.didnt know my mom was in town as well.=O. nvm.

//you two can just go shake hands.=)

2005-03-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

today...was a maths day.actually every wed is a maths day for me.=P suppose to have amaths test.got postponded. oh well.studied for it thou. i guess i cant slack anymore. j.loh came into class to pep talk us.ahh scary. =x

went to eastpoint to eat. bought a new hairband.GREEN.haha.i dunno.sudden facination with green and orange. went for tution after that.i UNDERSTAND WHAT HE WAS TALKIN ABOUT.WOOT.lalala.i did understand kay.blahh. im slowly getting into the mood to study.yay.like finally.since sec 2. the whole of sec 3 was crap shit.all play no hard work put in.sigh.oh well.gotta buck up on sec 3 work.

2005-03-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

hmm.oh yeah. i freaking failed my BIO TEST. URGHHHH. fking bias teacher isnt making it any better. blahblah.i expect better results from all of you.this is the FIRST time i have a class that can fail on homones and drugs abuse. blah blah. 4/7 i can have someone with 3/20.blah blah. 4/8 your expected MSG score is 7.9. just bring it up to E8. so i guess you all will fail.blahblah. to think you all put A1s and A2s as your bio target.i could laugh.

B.I.T.C.H.

urghhhh. people was asking why there was a plaster..hmm well.i scratched myself against some metal shelf. so yeah. =)

i gotta be used to it.

2005-03-20T18:51:00.000+08:00

school's starting tmr. mixture of feelings. i think this whole week my whole mind and heart was in a whirl. i can laugh and cry at the same time. sorted out my thoughts. i guess i was being...a bitch.i could only think of myself.self-centred maybe.im sorry.

know what.i guess i cant stop everything.should just let it be.

2005-03-19T10:09:00.000+08:00

murrr.guess what. we got EIGHTH PLACE OVERALL for geo challange. wooOOOt. beating skls like VS.hur.haha.and RI and chinese high. whEEEEEEEEEEEee. ok gloating time over. still got amaths to finish up.gahh.oh and ss.haha.

yesterday was really tiring.train up endurance.wooot.still cant believe it.know what.i was playing with marianne's finger when they said " 8th place goes to...St.Anthony's Canossian Seconday" den everyone turns.i was like "ehh.we gotta go up.haha" falalalala. it was fun thou.=)

ooh.on thurs watched robots.its a really cool movie.at first i was like uhhh.robots? but its nice.seriously. oh sigh..they are going back this sun.gahh.

yesterday was a BOO CHERYL day.huh marianne and steph? just out to suan me.boooo.haha

2005-03-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

caution.what im gonna type is MY OPINION. so shoo if u disagree with it.

was reading up on current affairs.so yeah.came across casino's articles. i guess many people oppose to the opening of a casino. like the religion groups are against it.that makes up like half the population or more? im not talking about catholics and christians alone. its against moral values to encourage gambling. actually the camp which is against the casino idea only has moral values to back it up.and the 'consequences' that follows.like how it will breakup a family and all that shit.

u know.people should grow up. yeah singapore is not in dire need of revenue.not cash strapped.but u have to be advancing forward in this current world.more money wont harm.right? so grow up.lol. esp in singapore.everyone wants to be top.ace.the ONE. and wont mind doing anything to get to the top.so why now making a big fuss over the casino? the government is not only building a casino.its building a entertainment park.so in tune, trying to get more revenue through tourism. many of the big citys have casinos. u may ask,so what if they have casino.singapore is doing fine right now.we dont have to build a casino. welllll,what about the future that is to come? are we still gonna be 'doing fine' being one of the better developed countries? other countries are catching up.if we dont do anything about it,we'll lose the race. as people may say, its a rat race out there.u play for yourself.

moral values.yes.they are important.like duhh.but shouldnt people have self restraint.a gambler will always be a gambler.even without the casino,family breakups,bankruptcy,etc.these stuff still happens.the gamblers would try 4d,toto,horse racing,online betting,overseas gambling(macau).so if like the casino opens.everyone would blame it on the casino? urgh. its only those hard-core gamblers that gets seriously affected. dont tell me there's an increasing number of hard-core gamblers. =p

loss of job due to excessive gambling.it only happens to a minority. unlike this. with the casino,more jobs are created.in the tourism industry.more people benefit from it. affects a small group in a negative way or affect a large majority in a positive way? i choose the latter.with the concern for the future.

not sure if i cover all points.blahh.phew.feel better now.

2005-03-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

im tired. gah.what a long day.woke up early in the morn to send my juniors to ccab.haha.i waited for the freaking bus for like 15min? wth.so i was late.sorreh.heh.went to town for breakfast with pat at macs.hmm.talked abt stuff.girl.cheerios.i'll be here.=)

went back.did work.power sleep for 15min? haha.got up.changed and went to town. towning is alrite with my couz.richmand is quiett.seriously quiet.well i think today i was kinda anti-social too.being quiet and all.we walked from..lido to fareast.fareast to heeren.heeren to cine. my legs are sorE.

tmr's gonna be another long day.geotrail.all around singapore.how fun.=P my legs will be like...heh.oh well.i think this week passed by damn fast.shucks.just when i was starting to enjoy time spent. scanning thru recent articles.hoping it will be absorbed for tmr.gahh.

talking to my dad about communism and democracy.and socialism and metrocracy. hurhur.lol.i like these kind of conv.=) yum. hope we will get pass all the oh-so-great schools and show them what we are made up of.HRUMPH. go us.haha.im bias.shoot me.

i feel...im feeling...weirD. o_O

2005-03-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

im super bored.freaking bored.Boredom consumed me.roar.

got nagged at cos i was stoning infront of the com.cant i stone in peace?! gawd. so yeah.i think my hp is gonna get confiscated.dunno how im gonna communicate with the world.i'll be tied down by an invisible string to my books. if i dont perform well in MYE that is.i really want to.but if i dont, i have to make hard sarifices which i hate. im seriously thinking that my bill is gonna soar skyhigh.dammit.and im really not gonna have a phone next month.oh how that sucks.

im BOREDDDDDD.shuen!where the hell are you.irritating.suppose to come online in half an hour time.waiting over 1 hour plus. gahh.i think im really patient. ah there.finally.haha.after like so freaking longgg.gah. haha.im patient. -nods-

i really gotta study?like now? but i cant.and that sucks.like fuck it.ahhhh.

i getting weird.due to the influence to some people. =O haha.

2005-03-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

you will know when you know it.

today's gonna be boringgg. chi tution later.gotta put in effort.for chi.yeah. tmr's a packedd day for me.and its amaths day.gah. morning amaths tutorial in skl,visit to SOS,amaths tution,dinner at home with couz. ahhh. and so will thurs and fri. im not prepared for fri.lol.we're gonna get lost in singapore.but how can it be.its so small.oh well.equipped with road maps and all,we might not get lost in the end.

yesterday was funn.=P

2005-03-14T09:44:00.000+08:00

i just sent an email regarding the CME project to some organisation.haha.improve my formal letter writing. =p but everyone's like busy and all..dots.we can just get zero.

my week's kinda filled.gah.

mon-beaching
tue-tution
wed-amaths tutorial, training?,amaths tution, dinner with couz
thurs- towning with couz. ccab in the morning.
fri-geotrail.whole day.
sat-legion.cath class.
sun-tution

wed always seemed to be the most packed. notice the couz part. well my couz came from canada.so yeah.we're good hosts and bring them out for fun.haha.just us.cousins.how cool is that.=D might go pooling too. one's 20 and the other's 13. yup.

gotta study study study.u all better do that too. =P

2005-03-13T11:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a tiring day.oh man.lets see.

1.went to skl for carnival.prefects shift.sell tickets.
2.went round finding people.
3.headed to church.its so freaking hard to catch a cab outside school.there's like no vacant cab at all.had to walk all the way near the police station.
4.cath class.slack time.rest before match.
5.kallang.match started at like 7. was there at 5.45.how nerve-wercking can it be.
6.lost match. 4-6,4-6. fun thou.sigh.
7.headed to macs.ate and went back by cab.

today is a seriously retarded day to catch a cab on the road.waited for like soo long. that's my day in 7 points. was suppose to meet up with my family for jap crusine.but from kallang to bukit timah.i rather not.was too tired anyway.

kallang was so ulu too.blahh.at least i got ethel.sorry girl.made u follow me.sorry.

//sorry. there's always another time...say pesta sukan?heh.

2005-03-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

oh man.like finally. the week is over.im freeeee.was slappin myself to stay awake in class today.its getting to me.gotta struggle.

oh know...saw the "viking ship" wow.it so can accomadate lots of people la.sampan.its gonna be boring.sitting there doing my shift.i was kinda feeling hyped up.but after seeing the viking..it was kinda shattered.

went for training.haha.its was alrite.just that now im having a headache.gonna sleep soon.blahh. im a good cap.wheeee.or so ms tan said. bahh.thats boosted my spirits up abit.training was kinda slack,now after the nationals.talked to pat and becks.=)

//i'll be here.for u to vent ur anger, fustrations,whatever.that's why im here right?

2005-03-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

about the outburst in the previous post.was damn tired of everything.im becoming anti-social.nik u rubbed some on me.heh.kiddin girl.

today's a super tired day.actually every wed is a super tired day. one hour amaths in the morning.first period.second is emaths. maths maths maths. aft skl is social studies tutorial. aft ss tutorial is geotrail meeting with ms lim. after that is amaths tution at bedok. im so drained.online now slacking.gotta study for phys tmr. blahh

i should slowly let go and pass it to her.hmm.its hard.

2005-03-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

i think i might pass my chi std test today.its on letter writing.just some words i didnt know how to write.blah.didnt want to bring the huge chi dict to skl. oh well. im motivated to study now.cept for the bio test tmr.haha. bio bio.i love u can u give me a1s? hmm.that's what jn said.it so helps laa.

today was boring.a typical tue.but aft skl headed to siglap gelare with jn n shirs. missed that place man. last year used to go there with shirs,liane,joce. sometimes ben too eh. study study.oh yeah.missed it. =) joel came along. tried to study but the conversation was too tempting.lol.talked abt lots of stuff in the end.

took a long walk back.its kinda soothing.to think about all the stuff that has been happening.ohoh.the freaking dunno-whats-her-name person put me in ticketing.nvm that since all the prefects have to do it.i rather the foyer area. but the thing is...my slot is from 12-5. like WTF. but the confirmed list is 8-11.30.but the consent form put 12-5. urghh.THANKS AR stupid woman.

and my phone sucks.pat said she msged me thrice. oh fk it. its stupid k.i tell u honestly the lower sec is gonna be so fucking screwed up if we dont do anything about it. the best thing is we cant do anything.we cant scold them till it gets into their thick skull,we cant pep talk them.yeah.we cant.how great is that.oh wow. we used to start training at 3. its already considered late to our ex-seniors who used to start at 2.45.so now we have to start at 3.30.why?cos of tutorials.fine. DO YOU FREAKS TAKE FIFTEEN MIN TO COUNT A BUCKET OF BALLS (95)?i guess you do.know what is RUNNING AROUND THE FIELD FOR WARM-UPS? its called running.you run.not walk.

oh.and please respect us.so we will respect you.

dammit.im sorry.super fustrated and angry now.urgh.

2005-03-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

hoho.i passed my chi test.ben.i passed.wheee.but u know.i failed one paper of phys,bio and geo. urgh geo.i should have passed k.irritating.

had the legion celebrating thing today.i admit the thing was kinda screwed.but u have to give credit to their effort.they stayed back to practice and all. all i can say is that it could have been better. gah.

went towning afterwards.watched hitch.funny movie.nice.for destressing. everyone's saying how ahlian i am. oh pls.i am not.urgh. i dont TyPe lIdDat.CaN. and i dont wear pink.light baby pink maybe.but not pink PINK. i dont do the stuff that they do. im sorry.i know im sterotyping people. so shoot me. bottomline. im not one. so there. =pp

hmm.stuff happened during the week that i forgot.heh.due to overload of information in my brain.gahh.

2005-03-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

she has issues.and its getting to me. like wtf. urgh.at home.shoots her mouth off like a loose cannon.

sometimes i just have to wear a mask out.its getting tiring. its like i may not be what i seem.that's a scary thought. wearing a mask out.not letting people know. infront i may just be a happy person.carefree and all.without worries.but deep down?heh.unable to open up.unable to let people see within me. maybe i shouldnt open up at all.

i should stop wallowing in self-pity and denial. celebrated denise's bday. happy birthday girl.i love you.<3>

2005-03-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

i deleted the previous entry.did that on the spur of anger.=p im kinda tired to blog long entries.sorreh to denise.=p
happy birthday girl.ur sixteen tmr! sweet sixteen. love ya. hmm..so i shall blog in points. rank them too.

1. WE FREAKING GOT IN FOR GEOQUIZ! wheee. to all those who didnt think we'll make it.URGH.lalala.so im not free on the 18th of march.its alrite.we got in!haha.didnt disappoint ms lim.=pp

2.went for tution and i UNDERSTAND.haha.for once.amaths.

3.i think i might pass my geo std test. hey, i finished the paper k.

4.the class has selective sight.

5.going out tmr.denise!haha.

6. im screwed for eng tmr.didnt bring back the compre bk.

7. we were so high during ss tutorial. =D

8.i was late.sorryyy.=p

9.my dad didnt keep dinner for me.heh

10.im screwed for eng tmr.first period.

there's my day in ten points.

2005-02-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

urh....hui.i have no idea what u are talking about.haha. =p

I PASSED MY FREAKING AMATHS TEST.whoot! and i didnt have a calculator.forgot to bring that day. could have gotten full marks. oh damn.why? cos of careless mistakes.urgh cheryl.

went to ~~cut~~ trim my hair. lalala. took forever just to do it. i love farihin for following me. yay! hmm.saw the reactions of some of my seniors. just afew woke me up already.damn.in 365 days it will be us recieving it. talking about days here.not years.blahh. and the top girl got like what..8 a1s. omg.

11-2=9 into vjc. OR

12-2=10 into tpjc/acjc

dunno laR. lets see during mye.

went for dental.can take the braces out in june i think.yay..heh.walked all the way back from eunos to my hse in kem. cool eh. the last part i ran all the way. train train.heh.

//yeah cheng.take a step at a time.for this take a test at a time.blahhh.bio bio.every teacher is stressing us out. not only mrs yong.

2005-02-27T14:25:00.000+08:00

i hate the weather.i seriously do. been sniffing my head off all morning. urghh. i guess mood-swings are back. heh. sorry to you.

2005-02-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

im a player, and life is just my game.

2005-02-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

oh fk.stupid blogger. i lost my entire entry. oh well.

"i cant draw for nuts" "draw five nuts then."

heh.funny aint it.sherilyn shared it.

i caught the flu bug from skl.head's kinda pounding abit.so cant meet up with pat n charles n samuel? and joce.heh.sorry guys.i wanted to play tennis thou.

oh well.skl was alright. just that our class clock is faulty.so i cant countdown to recess of 1.45pm.urgh. i was blanking out at emaths.haha.she's slowwww.finished the qns and she hasnt even started.oh well.eng was fun thou.talked about rituals. you know in india.if a young woman like marries an old guy and the fellow dies.she has to die with him? like.his body will put laid on a raft and set alight.and she has to wear her bridal gown and be burn alive with him. how sadistic. oh and one more. in parkistan or afganistan.not sure.anyway if a married woman looks in another guy's direction or talk to him, her husband can choose to disfigue her. usually the face. i was like WTF.and the way ms pilo describe the women's face( she watched a documantary on them) like too explicit....ewww.melting eyes n melted ears. gaping hole at the side of her neck,infested with pus and blood oh gross.hope none of u puke. guys are IDIOTS. no wonder there are an increasing number of feminist around the world. =p

chi test...im happy if i pass. im usually easy to please.heh.borderline is alright with me.afterall its chinese.lol. went with aggie n felicia to cut hair.didnt in the end.heh.

why is life so complicated?
stop analyzing life.just live it.analysis is what makes it complicated.

:p true true. -nods

//u toooooooot. lets make an exchange.u tell me i tell u.haha.that's fair. oh and if u get into combineskls....i'll treat u to a drink.that's ur motivation. lol =P

2005-02-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

urgh.juniors.urgh. *bish. busybodies.

i feel stalked.calls everyday.its IRRITATING. oh well.today was like one of the mondays that i managed to get though without tourns.for the past 3 weeks, had been goin off at recess time. tmr's combined schools.im not going.na-uh. the singles people are. amaths test tmr. hehh.amaths. differentiation.i dont know why but i just dont get it.unlike some others that claim that its easy.hur. dy over dx. blah blah blah.

i need assurances. im still a typical girl. oh to the hell with it.

2005-02-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

solipsism (noun) technical-the theory that the only thing you can be certain about is your own existence and your own thoughts and ideas.

i think its a cool word.my bro showed it to me.it just summarises EVERYTHING. about life and all. like you can only know for sure who you are and what you think. urmm..like u can never be sure about someone else existence nor their thoughts.tell me u can read other people's mind and i'll shut up.reading mind as in knowing what they are thinking EXACTLY.yupp.the whole theory is kinda selfish.like knowing only about you.yourself and noone else.but but thats really the only thing that u can like be certain.

enough of crap. geoquiz...haha. i spent like 2 hours studying for volcanos that nv even came out.wth! oh.and we took a london cab to NUS.is that cool or what. was trying to memorise the members of the new cabinet.and it didnt even come out.urgh. we had 5 min to browse throu before starting the paper. 30 qns 30 min. how nerve-wreaking.scan through..i was like fk shit.oh shit shit shit. had chris's file open infront of me.with all the topics..i skipped rivers thinking that it wasnt important. MAJORITY OF THE QNS WERE ABOUT RIVERS. i can just bang my head against the wall.sigh..its over.hope we could get to the second round.haha.we were split up as a skl in the sitting arangements.they thought that we would cheat.wth.got the second row.

went to CA for lunch.delicious.yum.clams.rushed back.changed and went for cath class.unlike some people who went to lan shop instead.so i didnt get my amaths notes. tried to sell the tix.hurmph.only mary bought.haha.go mary. phweet. wrote our letter to the archbishop.haha.self praise.i can do that. =p

kinda long entry.gtg now.

2005-02-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

your failure is my disgrace.

-mrs lim

how funny.oh well.gonna try to sell the carnival tix.its retarded making that sat a compulsory skl day.urgh the misery...i managed to get 2 people to buy.haha.ben if i cant sell the rest u buy can? lol.

tmr's the geoquiz.kinda feeling nervous.cramming everything into my brain right now.weather and climate.volcanos.cold current.hot current.ministers of the cabinet.mrt track lines. THATS ALOT.for me.heh. its mostly the extended syl of lower sec.i kinda forgot almost everything.so had to revise all over.=X borrowed chris's geo notes.haha.GEP notes.cool.neat freak k.handwriting so small.

praise and worship session got scraped out.phew.no work for me.yay.yes nic we are a boring bunch of legionaries.trust them to scrap it. went for team lunch today.its was fun.at tm's pizzahut.haha.cool shit. pranked val yu.and we were making a lot of noises. haha.thats sac tennis for you.=P

tmr's a busy day.

my bill's going up.definately. oops.

2005-02-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

u know..sometimes u get too much stuff on ur load u have to assign people to help you.they agree readily.but everything's in a mess.you get the blame.i hate these kinds of situation.oh well.

stupid carnival tix. i havent sold any.heh.and it has to be returned by tmr.shucks. THE WHOLE FREAKIN SCHOOL SYSTEM IS SCREWED la. guess why.who runs the skl? who's overall incharge of us? thats the ans to why its so fked up.

skl's so tiring now. seriously.plus the extra geoquiz work. i get myself in deep shit sometimes. agreeing to do stuff without thinking twice.now that im in, i cant back out.just have to give it my best. my hmk's affected. my relaxing time is affected.not that i have any. yeah. everything's somehow affected now.urgh.sec four. pilo talked about graduating with style and all.haha.white dresses.grad NIGHT.unlike kc's grad TEA.individual dressing sense.wth. haha.

i should sleep early. a person need an average of 9 hours of sleep. then maybe skl wont be that tiring... who am i kiddin.blahh.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2005-02-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

AZA WEE SILE. going rollarblading at night.oh wow. i swear u are an idiot.lol. out rollarblading and being UNCONTACTABLE. thanks ar.i want to finish the proposal before 11pm if possible. datelines.blah.my enemy. -bang.

on sat its the geoquiz.oh man..im so not ready.all physical geo.oh my.i really hope i manage to scrap through the first part.after that its all group work.haha.not so pressurising. oh well that's on sat.what else...oh cath class.urgh.oh wait.i'll get my amaths notes. at last.hmm.there's test tmr.and tutorial and tution.heh.packed to the brim.

after tourn.its all like getting use to the skl timetable again.been going off after recess.missed ALOT of lessons. and i emphasize the ALOTT. im so lagging behind.be it languages,maths,sciences. i can just go bang my head against the wall. =( i try to do my hmk.but u know what...i dont understand anything. i cant afford this anymore.seeing all my classmates work so hard. im like slacking damn badly.

i need a motivation.an aim. 10.

went to make my ez-link card.ohh i look like crap. and its gonna stay with me till the end of sec 4.blahh.

2005-02-13T17:07:00.000+08:00

im gonna fail chi orals. man...blah chi.

tmr's vday.i want my pressies before i go and trash cedar's butts k.haha. nahh.cedar is good. around same standard.just dont like their coach.gah. we'll just go oh hi happy vday.u wanna be my valentine? then start playing.haha.

agnes stood me up.u good la.luckily i didnt leave for church so early. went for 1215 mass instead. i am in no mood to do my hmk. cny break is too long.reallyyy.didnt collect alot anyway.my mom took almost everything.irritating.cant get my earphones.must savee.

yesterday was nice.today was nice.i want tmr to be nice to.that is to beat cedar. =P if i do..i'll call u up and scream into ur ear. haha.off ur phones people.

2005-02-09T13:22:00.000+08:00

everyday's a special day
today tomorrow and yesterdayyy
everyday's a special day to meee.

hmm.watched kids central today morning.heh.urmm.hi5 if im not wrong.haha.the song is cute. its chinese new year! HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL. dont wanna use up my msgs.used alot already.hurmph. now at jemmo's hse.talked to him about tertiary studies and all.now im not sure if i want to go to jc or poly.poly seems better now.maybe its his bias view that influenced me.im easily influenced.hmm.oh well. my dad's coming back today.yay.that's good.

gtg.angbao collection now.ciao.

2005-02-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

came back from the hospital not long ago.hmm.he's doning fine i guess.had a match with mgs before that.got literally trashed.oh well.cant expect much from mgs.that was the only match that i felt nervous about.sigh. played a 3-9.and it was the highest score for our team.haha.my wrist hurts.owww. there goes our chance of the semis.mannnnn.

today was distracting.i dunno.was in chemistry...stared into space.got caught la.duh.right infront of the teacher pls.den she asked me if i finished my assigned work.said i didnt know what to do.crap my way throu.heh.she believed.what can i say eh.-smirks- why am i distracted?

walked around tm with hui.bought our HOT PINK bands.haha.its fake and we know it.=) CNY is like so soon.not in the mood.im like not in the mood for lots of stuff,cept to talk to certain people.oh well.my life is screwed.what can i say. u know.................waiting sucks.big time.

is it hongbao or angbao?

2005-02-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

facts of life.

1. the world is round
heh.too much geo studying for me.was reading the atlas.memory cells are dead.oh man.why did i agreed to join the geoquiz.-knocks head-

2.life is screwed.
tell me u disagree.i wanna know.

3. people get pms easily now.not only girls.
hur.asses.-box-

3. o levels are coming.
that's what the teachers are saying.for me?start mugging now.in feb.yeah.

4.they want us to relax.
EH. by giving is 21 vocab exercises? i think it contridicts.

5.relaxation= beach
been there afew times.

6.vday is coming.
haha.its a fact WAD. and i have a match.against cedar.oh shucks. my opponent is my valentine.

where are you?

gah.that was my ranting.a few weeks ago i was having fun.now heh. went for legion n cath class.both equally boring.oh gosh. myaphrodisac.yum.lol.chocos.what were u thinking?!

would things progress?push me up.

2005-02-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

WHYYYYYYYYYY,urgh.

i thought i had enough of that kind of stuff.urgh...i feel super mean.oh man. its like the same kinda meaness that i felt last year.but last year one was worst.WTH.

and i thought my week was tiring enough.thought that friday would be a breeze,but nooo.god just had more suprises for me.2 more to be specific.c div team.what the hell happened?!!!!i thought that you all were capable enough to do things well without the seniors breathing down your necks.i guess i was wrong.why all the conflicts within the team?why getting complacent? seriously i dont think you are even ready for the tourn.if you all continue to be like this, i have no idea what's the outcome of it.i mean there's always have to be a leader and the follower.give and take.you can't take all the time. best part is, i have no idea what was going on until today.good right.what kind of cap i am. hui was saying that their attitude reflects on us.partly true.cant deny it.

push all of it back.trained the c div for awhile then passed over to si n weiqin.went to airport with hui.had a good chat with her in the cab.met her mom n bro.her bro's so cute,but naughty as well.scratched me.oh well.headed to tm to get her new clothes.couldnt find any.tm is limited.

tml's there's legion in the morning.200th meeting planning after that.cath class.i thought that by sec four we wouldnt be so involved in the skl.apparently not.u know i realised i thought about alot of stuff that turned out to be the opp of what i thought.life isnt perfect as it seemed.being positive all the time is draining my courage. i feel really weak after a lost match.still trying to coax myself saying nvm its alrite,there's always another time.but this is my last year,what other time would i have to bring glory to the skl?

i hope. for the best.

2005-02-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

was feelin much better after a talk with a person.wait i should say msg.haha.vendingmachine.oh wth.

tourn updates.
won 2 lost 2.urgh.
stc-won 9-8
tp-lost 5-9
kc-won 9-5
scgs-lost 6-9

haha.alternates.hui didnt expect us to win our doubles match with kc.yeah.looking at the scores..i think i did much better that last year pls.played against liane's sis and her fren.claire and yanyi if im not wrong.good match.if only my wrist and pat's arm wasnt hurting.could play much longer.but it was a good game.althou the umpire was kinda urgh.im so proud of jan.oh my.haha.i love u jan.lol.=)

trainin's cancelled tmr.im free.haha.yay... oh man.im so tired. 3 day tourn in a row.wahh. and i played all three.oh my.super tired.physically n mentally. gtg do my hmk now.

pilo is so freaking BIAS.omg.darn it.

ohoh.im a good kisser..haha.becks and me managed to tie a knot with the cherry stem in our mouth.haha.did it at hui's dinner party.MUACKS. lol.

2005-02-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

sigh.people said nevermind you done your best.but what is MY best?i dont think anything i do will be the best that i can achive.im getting negative.maybe i was too postitive.thinking that there is a chance that we could go into the semis.that i could lead them there.now being back down on the ground...i dunno. i hate this.

was feeling damn fusterated after the match.sprinted 400m.oh man.that really refreshed me.didnt sprint for so long.sprinted 400m in one short.the last time i did that was when i got gold.that long.oh well.felt much better after that.went to bugis after that to celebrate hui's birthday.at swensons.the food was good.money wise...im broke.oh shucks.literally broke.urgh and i did alot of retard actions and words. i think losing got into my brain.haha.at least the atmosphere was relax and celebrating.=) hope u had a great birthday hui.ice-cream cake. money went byebye.haha.

took neoprints too.i suddenly have this facination with bloated faces.haha. o_O -shows it-
got suan too.im prone to suaning.urgh.u arent the only one hui.blaH.

im so not gonna turn la.idiots.and i dont look like one!urgh.stupid people with retard eyesights.wahhh.

wait v day is coming.maybe i should turn.

am i scarin you?muahahaha.

2005-01-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

hmm. my legs are tiredd.super tired.went around the whole of tm and century looking for hui's prefect present.haha.found something.sharin with glad n joce.oh well.issac got his own present. walk walk walk.tiring.i dun really like shopping. =D walkin around yeah.shopping no.its so hard to find the perfect gift.blahh.

today...i forgot to bring my nametag.urgh.had to BUY and wear the big ugly one.sigh.got suan like dunno how many times.by dunno how many people.urgh.i am not spared.=P got lots of hmk to do...yup.shall do it later.heh.procrastinate.

tmr's match is against CHIJ-TP.sigh.hope we can win and give hui and nice and wonderful birthday gift.a skl won.heh.everyone's having their tournaments now.oh well good luck people.

i wanna win. xD to savour the victory.materialistic? who isnt.